>>be somebody.

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 13:54:24 GMT

Living with yourself is a whole other art than I really thought it was. It takes patience, time, understanding.... almost like a lover. It's a kind of poetry that needs to be nurtured. I'm thinking this college experience is going to be about learning not to make my body...my mind...my entire being a war zone. I can't take it. I've got so much more that's worth it demanding my energy and time and patience. I need to live with myself. Experience the plethora of worlds inside my head and be okay with every single one of them.

I find myself a bit behind in some ways...my vocabulary's been lost since I came to college. But I think that's what this is about. Reconstructing yourself, like globalization, causing the mobility of ideas to form a whole new identity that is completely a new take on life. I should thank God. THANK YOU GOD!

You know, when I came down here, I was screaming, "THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Text doesn't do justice to show how gratifying that was. I'm thinking that that needs to happen much more often down here. I'm thinking it will.

And I'm also thinking crew is probably not for me. I like the team environment...but too much time. I like to dedicate myself to multiple purposes. And if I was honest with myself, I like the idea of the dance team so much more.

I just need to breathe. I need space. I need to join a religious group. I'm thinking Intervarsity at UVM will be good for me. I think I need that tonight. I think I might go. I don't know. I'm kinda confused right now and need to get out of my head.

No...I need to live with myself. I need to write and experience that poetry of just being. The entity of me. And then the entity of everyone. Maybe everyone first.

Love,

Eliza.

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 13:04:19 GMT

New Journal!:

http://naskigi.livejournal.com

Add moi.

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 22:30:28 GMT

So, in the grand ol' style of some of my other lovely friends, I am taking a

COMPOOPER HIATUS.

Recently, I have really suffered the negative effects from unrestricted intake of HUGE amounts of self-help info on the web. I'm at the border of sanity, and it's becoming VERY compulsive.

SOOOOOO...

until my mental/emotional/spiritual state experiences an overall UPHEAVAL...

I will not be participating in your regularly scheduled internet activities.

I need to start taking care of myself.

Without further ado, the only times you may be seeing me on this simultaneously lovely/destructive instrument:

1. When there's another person present (DURING ALL INSTANCES IF AT ALL POSSIBLE)
2. Only up to 30 minutes a day to respond to e-mails and general info seeking that cannot be performed in real life)
3. For educational purposes (meaning typing up reports, graphs, etc.)

Therefore, if you wish to contact me, feel free to yatter at me on the phone, accost me in real time, and/or shoot off an e-mail to my account (just be aware that this method may require more response time).

I shall see you all again when I'm in a healthier state of being!

MUCH LOVE AND FLUFFY STUFF,

Eliza.

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 17:44:41 GMT

Oh dear Lawdy.

Happy Summer! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDd !!11!11!0

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 02:35:46 GMT

Mon, 29 May 2006 02:58:25 GMT

Ask me 4 questions. And no matter how personal, private, icky, or just plain odd they are, I have to answer them. However, you then have to post this message in your own journal, and answer anything asked of you....

Thu, 25 May 2006 17:33:53 GMT

Hey guys, I'm really not supposed to be on here, but I had to sneak on to let you know how I am.

For those of you who were there yesterday, you know probably know that in Bio I started getting very severe abdominal pain and had to leave. Dad took me to the doctor's and they did a bunch of tests (joy). They didn't find anything endangering, all the tests were normal. It's not likely that I have appendicitis, but they aren't sure because it can be sneaky. They monitored my pain overnight, and when I came back this morning, it had gotten a bit better but it was still painful to move too much. The ibuprofen they give me helps, but when it wears off the pain comes back very badly and in waves. So around 3, Mom's taking me to the hospital for a pelvic and abdominal ultrasound as well as an X-Ray, to try and clear up what it might be.

I just wanted to let you guys know I'm alright, and I'll be okay. Keep smiling for me, and don't worry too much. Oh, by the way, I'll give you something to do while you wait for the news:

If I am on your friends list, why am I on your friends list?

Comment below, and add the question to your LJ, so I can return the favor.

Love,

Eliza.

Mon, 22 May 2006 22:55:19 GMT

Well hello there.

I have no excuses this time as to why it took me so long to update. I suppose I just haven't felt too inspired to bother lately.

One thing for which I'm grateful: everything seems to be settling down into that contentedly busy buzz, instead of that frantic scream of rushing around everywhere that I've been doing for the past few months. I can divulge that it is quite a relief.

My grandparent's 60th anniversay was last Saturday, as many of you well know. Lots of memories, treasured stories, as well as learning new ones. I brought Lana with me and showed her around my half hometown region. We had a lot of fun for our short stay. One of my dear family friends who's known me since birth said (with such a genuine tone that I could never doubt she thought so) that I looked like a model, as well as telling me an interesting story about my Uncle Tommy that I hadn't heard before, and filled my heart with joy. Apparently, when I was born, they met at the post office, and he was absolutely enthralled with the thought of me. She asked him, "What's her name?" and he exclaimed, "Eliza! Isn't that a beautiful name?!". She proceeded to ask how my mother was, and he replied "Oh, the mother's fine, but the baby is perfect!". I also came upon some pictures I never had seen before of him feeding me in our old apartment. I really wish I could have had the opportunity to have gotten to know him. I have no doubt he was a wonderful man. Also, some more of my extended family met my father and Debbie. I just feel so blessed that things could work out this way. There's no hostility whatsoever, for which I am immeasureably thankful.

On the subject of my Dad, as some of you may know, this weekend is our 2 year anniversary. That just seems like such an amazing miracle, it takes breath and words from me when I contemplate the whole extent of the situation and how it has changed me so much.

I have so many things to be thankful, grateful, and any other adjectives describing completely humbled for. If you have any doubts in your minds, let me clear them up right now: I love you all SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO (etc) much. Thank you for all of your constant support, love, friendship, and every precious gift you've given me.

Words are very much lost on this subject, because they don't even get close to how much I want to express. But I know you all understand somehow.

Cheers, my dears.

Love~

Eliza.

Tue, 09 May 2006 01:22:36 GMT

Well, as some of you might know, recently I've been plagued with a cold. Yeah. Annnnd...that's not fun.

I really don't feel like doing much of an entry now, I just wanted to update you guys and post a quiz thingy:

Neutral-Good
68% Good, 44% Chaotic

Plane of Existence: Elysium, "Blessed Fields". Description: The plane of peace. Notable Inhabitants: Guardinals - noble immortal humanoids with bestial features.

Examples of Neutral-Goods (Ethically Neutral, Morally Good)

Cloud Strife (FFVII)
Boogenhagen (FFVII)
Mother Theresa
Ghandi
Sidhartha Gautama (the Buddha)
Gandalf
Bilbo & Frodo Baggins
Samwise Gamgee
Indiana Jones
The Dali Lama
Ben (O-Bi-Wan) Kenobi
Luke Skywalker
Harry Potter
Hermionie
Dumbledore

Often goes along with the laws and desires of the group as being the easiest course of action, but ethical considerations clearly have top priority. May pursue quite abstract goals. Often aloof and difficult to understand.

Will keep their word to others of good alignment
Would not attack an unarmed foe
Will not use poison
Will help those in need
May work with others
Indifferent to higher authority
Indifferent to organizations

Neutral Good "Pure Good"
"Benefactor"

A neutral good [person] will obey the law, or break it when he or she sees it will serve a greater good. He or she is not bound strongly to a social system or order. His or her need to help others and reduce their suffering may take precedence over all else. Neutral good [people] do good for goodness' sake, not because they are directed to by law or by whim.

This alignment desires good without bias for or against order.

Other Alignments and Tendencies (Tendenices are what you would more often sway towards; esp. for Neutrals):
0-39% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Evil
0-39% Good, 40-60% Chaotic: Neutral-Evil
0-39% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Evil
40-60% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Neutral
40-60% Good, 40-60% Chaotic: True Neutral
40-60% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Neutral
61-100% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Good
61-100% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Good</i>

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on Good

You scored higher than 99% on Chaotic

Link: The Alignment Test written by xan81 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 23:39:24 GMT

Well, I figured I better update before time got too far away with me. As some/most of you know by my erratic, scatter-brained, and fully stressed out behavior recently, my schedule did not make any allowance for leisure time. I am glad to say, THE CYCLE IS BROKEN. This very past Friday, I went into my permit test and came back out with my permit and the highest score in the class. Seriously. I only missed one question, which left me at a 98. That kinda vexes me because I coulda rubbed it in James' face about being his first aced student if I had just gone with my first instinct. Oh well. I HAVE MY DAMN PERMIT! WOOOHOOOO! And no, my driving isn't as erratic as my behavior right now.

Sooooo the schedule will at least not be hell-like anymore. I'll still be kept sufficiently busy, however. I still have to work, I have the All-City Concert at the Bangor Auditorium (7:00 for all interested parties ;) ) on Tuesday, and then two weeks after that I have another one at Bangor High (same time). Not to mention Mother's Day thrown in there, as well as my Grandparent's 60th Wedding Anniversary Party on May 20th. Then the weekend after that is Dad and I's anniversary. Phew. Busy. And then I'll probably be preparing for finals, and June 12th, I'm outta school! WOOOOHOOOOO TIMES TWO! Yes, that was meant to rhyme. But at least it won't be so blocked up anymore, or tedious. CELEBRATION!

Okay, must be off for now, homework calls. Must get the arsenary ready.

Cheers, my dears.

Love,
Eliza.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 02:57:06 GMT

HAH! LOOK AT HOW MUCH YOU LISTEN!

1) Who is the last person you high-fived?:
Uhhhh. I think it was either Justine or Lana.

2) If you were drafted into a war, would you serve?:
I'd kinda be forced to...

3) Do you sleep with the tv on?:
No.

4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?:
Yes.

5) Have you ever won a spelling bee?:
Never been in one.

6) Have you ever been stung by a bee?:
No.

7) How fast can you type?:
No idea...

8) Are you afraid of the dark?:
Not really. If anything, what hides in it.

9) What color are your socks?:
It varies. I'm more of a flip flop girl now that it's spring.

10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in?:
I've only been to a drive in once when I was 9, and no, I did not make out when I was 9 years old.

11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?:
I would choose a bath over a shower almost every weekend if the bath wasn't too small for my legs.

12) Do you knock on wood?:
Not really. Sometimes.

13) Do you floss daily?:
No.

14) Do you wanna Fanta?:
No. Bring your carbonated booty-shaking to someone else.

15) Can you hula hoop?:
I like it, but suck at it.

16) Are you good at keeping secrets?:
Depends if it involves the person telling me it hurting themselves or someone else. If not, then yes.

17) What do you want for Christmas?:
A laptop!

18) Do you know the Muffin Man?:
...Who told you?

19) Do you talk in your sleep?:
Not that I know.

20) Who wrote the book on love?:
Look up. He wrote everything.

21) Have you ever flown a kite?:
Yes.

22) Do you wish on your fallen lashes?:
Nope.

23) Do you whiten your teeth?:
I've got whitening toothpast...that count?

24) Can you smell what the Rock is cooking?:
Huuuuuh? Uhm. Cocoa Pebbles. ~BAD PUN~

25) Have you ever asked for a pony?:
Maybe...

26) Have you, or would you ever, donate sperm/eggs?:
Only if it was for someone I know.

27) Can you juggle?:
Not really.

28) Missing someone now?:
Kinda.

30) Do the chickens have large talons?:
I think it depends. Small, I betcha.

32) Are you ready to rumble?:
Oh, honey, I've got a headache. I'm not in the mood. Waaaahhh.

34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?:
No.

35) How do you spell relief?:
The way it's written in the dictionary.

36) Have you ever crawled through a window?:
Been close to once or twice.

37) Have you ever eaten dog food?:
No.

38) Can you handle the truth?:
Sometimes I don't like to, but I can.

39) Do you like green eggs and ham?:
Only if I was having breakfast with Dr. Seuss.

40) Who is your daddy?:

SOMEONE WHO IS AWESOME.

---------------------------

[Shoe size]
9 1/2 to 10

[Parents still together]
No, never really were.

[Siblings]
Zero.

[Pets]
5 kitties!

FAVORITES

[Color]
Indigo!

[Number]
8 and 19

[Animal]
Dolphin!

[Drinks]
Iced tea, latte lites, crystal light.

[Soda]
Ewwwwwww.

[Book]
Too many.

[Flower]
Lilies.

DO YOU

[Color your hair?]
I have.

[Twirl your hair]
Sometimes.

[Drink/Smoke?]
No/No.

[Like roller coasters?]
Never been on one.

[Wish you could live somewhere else?]
I'd like to explore, but I'll save it for college and after.

[Own a web cam?]
No.

[Know how to drive?]
Learning.

[Own a cell phone?]
No.

[Ever get off the computer?]
...Maybe.

-------------------------

IN YOUR MYSPACE:
1) Is your display name from a song?: no
2) Do you have over 100 friends?: nope.
3) Do you have pictures of yourself?: yep.
4) Do you get 1-3 comments every day?: sometimes, sometimes not
5) Do you have a song?: pshh. I have dialup. What's the use of having a song if you can coherantly listen to it.

WOULD YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS:
1) Sneak into a rated R movie?: Lmao, it's been done.
2) Sleep in the same bed?: See above.
3) Rob a bank?: I wouldn't.
4) Team up together and kill someone? Noooo.

IN YOUR ROOM:
1) So you have a wood floor or carpet?: carpet
2) Are your walls painted bright colors?: do you consider white to be bright?
3) Do you have artwork hanging up on the walls?: well, Gerard Way's body is a work of art, damnit. But besides that, yes.
4) Do you have clothes on the floor?: In the closet, because they keep falling off the hangers.
5) Do you have stuffed animals?: yes. nyar.
6) Do you have a hidden stash of candy somewhere?: no
7) Do you and your friends spend most of the time there?: nooooo. very few of my friends see it because the house is kinda like a bomb shelter.
8) Do you have your own TV?: yeeeeah. it's got crappy sound, though.
9) Do you have over 100 CDs?: haven't really counted recently.
10) Do you have a bunch of pictures of bands and celebrities?: a few.

WOULD YOU EVER:
1) Would you ever sing a solo?: yeah. I've sang a duet before...
2) Take an hour-long shower?: it's been done
3) Smoke pot just to be cool?: it's not cool to destroy your brain...no, thanks.
4) Make a mean myspace for someone you hate?: naaaah.
5) Spend all night on homework?: ehhhh...kinda been done but not really...

DO YOU LIKE:
1) More than one person?: small crushes, nothing huge.
3) Daisies?: yes! :D
4) To paint your fingernails?: sometimes
5) Music?: can't live without it!
6) Black raspberry ice cream?: sure.
8) The beach?: HELL YES!!
9) Cats? Kittens?: uhh...just take a look around my friggin' house. 5 cats. hellooooo?

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 15:46:08 GMT

Feeling progressively better today. I think that whole thing yesterday was something I ate. Got some stuff out of my system, and while I'm still not exactly perky, I'm more alive than I was yesterday.

I'm thinking part of it was stress-induced as well. I've proclaimed today a 'me' day. Shopping, maybe stopping by the VFW, relaxing. I dunno, maybe some dancing later on. I'll see how things go.

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 20:20:24 GMT

I guess this is my whine week.

I dunno. It seems like just one long bad day extended...

I wonder if I should even bother filling you in. You all are probably just sick of my bad news.

I tried to go to school today. Made it to 7-8 (or around 10:15 AM for those of you not on BHS time), and got the worst stomach cramps I've had in a lonnnng time. I mean, it brought tears to my eyes.

I was really reluctant to even call home because of what an inconvenience another sick day would be.

But I did. I missed my driving appointment set up during one of my study halls, and my mom is most likely going to have to pay for the missed time. We really don't need that expense...

And I missed Driver's Ed class today. Which means I'm most likely going to have to make it up.

Dad took me home crying, and I proceeded hovering over the toilet for 2 hours, praying that it would go away or it would just come up and be over with.

After he left, I threw up/ spit up stomach acid. Lovely, I know. My voice is hoarse now.

This is hell...and I hate to bitch...and I hate to whine. But my God, I'm at the edge of my rope. I'm so afraid that everyone is going to be mad at me and what an inconvenience I am...

I don't know if I can take being bitched at in the current state I'm in.

I'm sorry...

-in your head, in your heart, in your soul-

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 16:21:12 GMT

Well it looks like everything I was desperately trying to outrun caught up with me...

I'm getting sick.

Took today off from school to try and get some rest, but I still have to be on the run after 2 PM.

I'm praying Saturday comes soon. Even vacation won't be much of a vacation from anything, but I get the feeling it would be better than this.

Sorry for the bringing-downess...

It's just that this week bites. Where it hurts.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 00:06:21 GMT

Conclusion 1: Today was a plain rotten day through and through. Reeeaaaaallly bad. Period.

Conclusion 2: I need to stop overeating because of emotions...

Conclusion 3: Incense burning does the soul good.

Conclusion 4: I can't wait until summer.

-we travel like gypsies, only with worse luck and far less gold-

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 20:47:04 GMT

The past week has unbelieveably insane, and it doesn't look like it's letting up any time soon:

~ I've been driving on the 'real roads' twice so far. First time I went driving I encountered Broadway and State St. AND LIVED! HUZZAH! Going driving tomorrow.

~ Sweet 16 went off loverly! The hall looked great, and I had tons of fun with my friends. Yesterday (my real birthday) I went in with balloons and recieved even more niceties. T'was nice.

~But now it's back to stress. I've still got 8 more class of Driver's Ed that last 3-5:30 and are the most tedious things EVER. Growl.

~Add onto that that work is expecting me...and homework...makes for a very stressful situation. I had to call in today for Lisa, and I could just hear the obvious dissappointment. I don't blame her at all, I know it extremely inconveniences her when I do this...

I feel extremely guilty, because she doesn't deserve this. They're great at work, and I'm so thankful I have that job, but I'm at the point right now where my person health is being risked. It's not that I don't want to do it...but I don't know if I can keep juggling -everything- without letting them down again... and I'm guessing that I'm not going to be able to do that many times more (with good reason) before they let me go. And I'll be dissapointing probably more than one person if that happens...

I'm scared to death of people being dissapointed in me. I have the automatic connection that they'll never love me the same again if they get dissapointed by me...

I mean, seriously, it's a serious fear. I had an anxiety attack after I talked with Lisa. I cried for like...45 minutes afterward.

But I'll just try to keep the hope going...things will sort out. And I'll be okay, no matter what.

Now I just have to keep saying that until I believe it.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 22:09:08 GMT

Four jobs I've had in my life:
1. working at EFP
2. babysitting

3. volunteering at Manna

4. voluntering at the Round Up

Four movies I would watch over and over:
1. Howl's Moving Castle

2. Spirited Away
3. Phantom of the Opera
4. Stage Beauty

Four places I have lived:
1.Bangor

2. See above.
3. See above above.
4. See above above above.

Four TV shows I love to watch:
1.Whose Line is it Anyway?
2.Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends.
3.America's Next Top Model (sometimes)
4.The 4400.

Four places you have been on vacation:
1. Arizona
2. New Hampshire
3. Florida

4. New Orleans

Four web sites I visit daily:
1. Gmail
2. Myspace

3. Livejournal
4. Fanfiction.net...yes I am that much of a dweeb.

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Oatmeal.
2. Waffles/Pancakes

3. ...Can't live without chocolate. I'll just admit it. But I can only have it once a week. Or icecream. Yummy.

4. Strawberries

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. At Camp Roosevelt

2. On a beach at the ocean

3. Japan, New Zealand, the Carribean, Southern France, Southern Africa...

4. Somewhere having a great time with my loved ones.

Four Friends that have been tagged that I think will respond:
1. Lily
2. Sam
3. Moira
4. Auntie Belinda

Four things I always carry with me:
1. my beliefs
2. ...clothes?
3. hopefully all internal organs and bodily fluids
4. the people I hold in my heart

-gone, going, gone-

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 03:02:07 GMT

Dear Androgynous~

Hey. Can't be too long about this since I want to sleep -very- soon. Just figured I'd let you all know how I am.

-Speech went fine. Got a 98 on it, and I think the only reason I got those 2 points deducted was because of a screw up with citing in the written copy. Overall, I'm quite happy with it.

-Getting ready for birthday party/getting annoyed with people who haven't RSVPed yet/getting on their backs for it. Going decoration shopping this weekend. Sadly, all of my friends just DECIDE to get together on that weekend, too. I can't help but feel a little left out...but I guess there's nothing to be done about it.

-Current addiction/obsession/thing to daydream about= Howl's Moving Castle. You can thank Justine for that, after her movie party last Saturday. ALL HAIL MIYAZAKI! ~bowbows~

-Last week went pretty well in all. This week however...I dunno. I'm just a little more on edge or worn out I guess. I can't figure out why. At some points I'm really good and at others I'm...blah. Oh well.

- REALLY enjoying the weather this week. Spring makes me so happy, you would NOT even begin to understand.

- I think I finally kicked the plateau. Been talking with the trainers at the gym, and some modifications went into my program. Given, it's much harder, but it's worth it. I know this because last week I FINALLY lost weight for 2 consecutive weeks in God knows how long. You have no idea how psyched I am. Keeping the fingers crossed for weigh in tomorrow.

- Starting DRIVER'S ED on April 3. Orientation's on the 1st, at 9 AM. Not to motivated for the early morning on Saturday, but I'll deal.

Otherwise, things remain normal on the homefront. Sleepy time for me now.

Cheers, my dears.

Yours~
Whatever You Want to Call Me

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 02:47:16 GMT

Trees
~ 66% Water ~ 62% Wind ~ 66% Earth ~ 62% Fire ~

No paper, no ring

In the trees where frogs sing...

Your colours are the dark orange and dark green. You are likely compassionate, romantic, reliable and devoted. However, this may sometimes cause people to take advantage of your kindness. You may feel stressed from working too much, too. You could try wearing a Tiger’s Eye; it strengthens your willpower and helps you think clearly.

In detail:

Your Heart Chakra, which is associated with the element of water and represents our sense of love and compassion, and your Creative Chakra, which is associated with the element of </b>earth</b> and represents our need to preserve and grow, are predominant.

Your Throat Chakra, which is associated with the element of wind and represents our desire to learn and communicate, and your Ground Chakra, which is associated with the element of fire and represents our basic desires and driving force are not quite as prominent.

These are the results you will get if you score highly on...

None of the four elements: Balance Wind: Gust Fire: Blaze Water: River Earth: Valley Wind & Fire: Thunder Wind & Water: Clouds Wind & Earth: Canyon Fire & Earth: Lava Fire & Water: Tornado Water & Earth: Trees Wind, Fire & Earth: Storm Wind, Fire & Water: Stars Wind, Water & Earth: Forest Fire, Water & Earth: Avalanche All four elements: Harmony

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 81% on water

You scored higher than 22% on wind

You scored higher than 80% on earth

You scored higher than 45% on fire

Link: The Elemental Balance Test written by Nitsuki on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 02:21:16 GMT

SAD SECTION:
01. Ever really cried your heart out: Yes.
02. Ever cried yourself to sleep: Yes.
03. Ever cried on your friend's shoulder: Yes.
04. Ever cried over the opposite sex: Yes.
05. Cry when you get an injury: Depends on how much it hurts.
06. Do certain songs make you cry: Yes.

HAPPY SECTION:
01. Are you a happy person: Most of the time.
02. What can make you happy: Principle things? Love, loved ones, and music.
03. Do you wish you were happier: Yes.
04. Is being happy overrated?: No.
05. Can music make you happy: Yes.

LOVE SECTION:
01. How many times have you had your heart broken: Once.
02. Ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them: Yes.
03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved
you: Yes.

HATE SECTION:
01. Ever made a hit list: No.
02. Have you ever been on a hit list?: I dunno.
03. Are you mean?: Try not to be.

I HAVE:
[] been to a rave.
[x] ridden in a taxi.
[] jumped a ramp with a bike.
[x] been used.
[] ran from the cops.
[] been fired.
[x] snuck into a movie.
[] been in a fist fight.
[] got hit by a car.
[x] fired a real gun.
[] snuck out of the house.
[] been arrested.
[] gone in a mosh pit.
[] stolen something from your school.
[] celebrated New Year's in Times Square or Disney World.
[] gone on a blind date.
[] had a crush on a teacher.
[] celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans.
[] been to Europe.
[] been to Australia.
[] been to Hawaii.
[] thrown up from drinking.
[x] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover.
[] gone ice skating.
[] been cheated on.
[] had your tonsils out.
[] had a car.
[x] driven a car.
[] totaled a car.
[] flashed someone.
[x] been flashed.

DO YOU:
[x] feel lonely.
[] feel happy.
[] hate yourself.
[] have a dog.
[x] sing along with your music.
[x] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[x] listen to rock.
[x] listen to punk.
[x] listen to hip hop. (sometimes)
[] listen to rap.
[] listen to country.
[x] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] listen to pop.
[] listen to r&b.
[x] listen to jazz.
[x] listen to indie.
[x] listen to christian music.
[x] listen to metal.
[x] listen to bands that can't be put into a category.
[x] listen to classic rock.
[x] listen to alternate.
[x] listen to showtunes.
[x] have hobbies.
[x] get good grades.
[] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[] wear boxers.
[x] wear eyeliner.
[x] wear mascara.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like the color red.
[x] like the color green.
[x] like the color black.
[x] like the color yellow
[x] like neon colors.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[] have long hair.
[x] have medium length hair.
[] have short hair.
[] have a laptop.
[] have a pager.
[] have a cellphone.

ARE YOU:
[x] bored.
[] happy.
[] upset.
[] Samoan.
[] Filipino.
[] Korean.
[x] French.
[x] English.
[x] American.
[] Italian.
[] Sicilian.
[] Serbian.
[] Black.
[] Mexican.
[] Asian.
[] Muslim.
[] Polish.
[] Finnish.
[] Swedish.
[] Scottish.
[x] Native American.
[x] Irish.
[] German.
[] Austrian.
[] Hungarian.
[] Russian.
[] Norwegian.
[] Other.
[x] no clue.
[] a Hindu.
[] a scientologist.
[] agnostic.
[] athiest.
[] religiously confused.
[] short.
[] average.
[x] tall.
[x] realistic.
[x] an emotional person.
[] talking to someone.
[] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die. (sometimes)
[] buzzed.
[] high.
[] caffeinated.
[] annoyed.
[] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[] on the phone.
[] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[] eating something.
[x] ticklish.
[] listening to music.

LOOK AT ME:
01. What is your current hair color: Reddish brown
02. Whats your natural color: Light brown.
03. What color are your eyes: Blueish-green. They change.
05. Straight Hair or Curls: Straight for the most part.

CURRENTLY WEARING:
01. What shirt are you wearing: Just a night gown...
02. Shoes: Snoopy slippers.
03. Underwear: Getting a little personal there, are we?
04. Necklaces: None.

CURRENT:
01. Current Mood: Okay.
02. Current music: The computer whirring.
03. Current hair: Up in a clip.
04. Current Longing: To lose weight, have a guy. Teenage shit. :p
05. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing: Working on my speech.
06. Current Windows Open: myspace and livejournal

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I took the "The Animal Spirit" quiz on gURL.com
		My animal spirit is... The Coyote According to shamanistic wisdom, coyotes are the animal world's trickster. Coyote people have a way with words, and a unique way of seeing the world. Never ones to take things at face value, coyote people question authority with sly jokes. Read more... What is your animal spirit?

-woke the dawn-

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 20:34:37 GMT

Dear Androgynous~

Hey. Not much to report here. Just went back to school today.

Seems like I'm in an all-around better mood about myself and things in general. Much more calm, less anxious. This is what praying does, I guess. It just finally hit me one day...like a week or so ago to actually start getting down on my knees. It works for me.

Otherwise, working on the invitations for my party. They should be coming out soon. Stay tuned!

In a very Eisley-ish mood today. Tells me that spring is coming. :D YAYAYAYAYAY!! Bet I can get three or more cheers for that.

Okay, gonna go for now.

Talk to you soon.

Cheers, my dears.

Yours~

Whatever You Want to Call Me.

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 01:50:18 GMT

Take the quiz:
What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)

Eden
You have eden eyes. Eden is the color of water. Your eyes symbolize your great flexibility. You are a creative person. You can think of many good ways to get your point across to people as you have very good communication abilities. When someone feels down or is hurt, you have the remarkable ability to help them and heal them. If you have too little going on in your life, you may be withdrawn and depressed, timid, manipulative, unreliable, stubborn, or suspicious. Some words to describe you: peaceful, sincere, affectionate, tranquil, intuitive, trustworthy, pure, loyal, healing, and stable.

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-what's the deal-

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 22:05:46 GMT

Dear Androgynous~

Hey. Can't be too long about this. Mom's out of town, and I'm going to dad's this weekend, probably won't be back home 'til Sunday. Still in the city, but not the same computer ;p. I'm looking forward to some quality time with him. Honestly, if you look before last weekend, it was...like 3 weeks since I last saw him.

B-day stuff's starting to fall into place. I'm getting psyched already. :D

So cheers to that.

Talk to you sometime after Sunday.

Yours~

Whatever You Want to Call Me.

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 03:02:49 GMT

<td align="center">Your Theme Song:

"Beat It" - Michael Jackson

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...kinda scary.

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Your most appealing feature is:
Your Skin

Your best feature is your skin. Your skin has an incredible tone and is very soft. All of your friends are crazy jealous.

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Tue, 07 Mar 2006 22:41:49 GMT

Dreamer Faerie
You are the Dreamer Faerie. You are extremely

thoughtful, and sometimes outgoing. Most of

the time, however, you prefer working alone

rather than with others. You are also

creative and have an overall friendly

personality.

Wings: Gray and red
Power: Dreams/wishes
Sexual appeal: Some people think you act a

little childish, but incidentally many guys

find this very attractive (as long as you

don't overdo it, of course).
What you look for in a guy: To you, the

ideal man would be very tall, dark-haired and

blue- or green-eyed. You need someone fun to

hang out with but at the same time a partner

that you can engage in intelligent

conversations.